a few good books

I have been on a decor and cookbook bender. I tried to get into a few books of fiction but it never seems to pan out.

or maybe I am trying to read what I think I should read versus what I actually want to read which is chic lit and mysteries

Perphas, I will look through my virtual and physical shelves and see if anything catches my eye.

or maybe I will just read about decorating and cooking and watch people talk about fiction.

my favorite booktuber these days is Jen Campbell

letting go, too

there has been this nutty thought looming in my head about getting rid of most of my old journals. Or just keeping the ones that mean something to me or cutting out the pieces that do.

when I think about all the things I’ve created I am happy I have created them but rarely do I go back and look at the older ones. my favorite journal is always my current one.

art is so funny. I always thought I was creating to hold on but maybe it’s about letting go, too.

enough

I recently finished craft-fulness: mend yourself by making things. the book did not present any earth shattering revelations but it did remind me of why I do what I do…i love it.

I know that we are often told to monetize all the things (and there is nothing wrong with that) but it is also okay to just do things because they make you feel good.

maybe I am the freak who just likes to make things for the sake of making them. I know I could do more but I don’t want to right now. I am satisfied with my smallness. I am okay with my ordinary life of making , wifing and mothering. I don’t want to hustle or beholden to shareholders/clients/the market…not right now and maybe never when it comes to creativity.

the truth is after 900 years of school( I kid but it felt like that at times) , I still don’t know what I want to be when I grow up but maybe I am doing what I need to in this particular session of my life. And that is okay. it’s more than okay. it’s enough.

I have probably written this all before but it bears repeating.

A list for today #1

List |

Taking deep breaths

My kids. They are nuts but so fun. We are actually having a pretty decent summer and I say this because the past few have been bad bad. Keep us in your prayers.

Not trying to solve anyone’s business but my own| minding my business

Water

Vitamins

Dandy blend

Outside and chill

Laughing

Loving

Cooking

Baking

Music…Tasha’s Cobbs break every chain.

Reading. I’m going to try and finish a stack of books that I’ve renewed about three times this month…it’s mostly cookbooks (so I have a fighting chance).

Remembering my grandma. Her passing anniversary is this month. I want to make a cake or cornbread and greens and all the food I can recall her cooking. I don’t know what I will have strength for but she will be on my heart. I want to remember her to my kids because because of her I am.

Art. It is such a gift. One day…I will write(even if only you for myself) how it changed my life for the better.

Imaginary worlds

Materials |

Gouache , watercolor, ink, and marker. Scotch tape

Paper includes some pieces of Sabrina ward Harrison (and the questions) Daphne’s diary (little pieces of flower collage bits) maybe an image from Bella grace (yarn) and vintage papers. I think there is also a sticker from a planner sticker pack(probably happy planner) and some tabs from wanderlust (everythingartuk).

Trust

Materials |

For these pages I used a sticker pack called faith warriors, thickers (from American crafts), Washi tape, tissue paper from Tim Holt’s and some vintage papers. Also used some gouache, stabilo, oil pastels, scribble sticks and some random pens.

my bible is the message canvas bible and I do use it exclusively for bible journaling so I am okay with covering some of the words.

breadcrumbs

“Prayer is not asking for what you think you want, but asking to be changed in ways you can’t imagine.” 
― Kathleen Norris

more journal love

some materials from Ali Edwards,the wanderlust (everythingartuk course), flow magazine and Daphne’s diary
Images from random card & Tim holtz
flow magazine(balloons) and Courtney Diaz (images on the floor). images from Bella grace?
journal baby all ready to go. cover from wild simplicity( Lesley Austin), paper from Tim holtz, flow magazine and Daphne’s diary. fabric from joybird(samples)

Wild simplicity daybook and my faux junk journal insert

It’s a faux junk journal because I made a little watercolor sketchbook (using pamphlet stitch), modified it to fit inside the day book cover and then I glue or sew the junk journal pieces onto the sketchbook😩.

it gives me the illusion of a junk journal with the possibility and stability of a sketchbook.

I really enjoy making sketchbooks…as long as I can do whatever when it comes to the binding…as soon as I have to be perfect I am over it.

Tbh I have some more fussing about to do in the inside of the insert…can’t wait to see what it becomes.

thoughts on gathering inspiration and/or supplies with intention

I have taken quite a few Jeanie Oliver classes and in all of them she mentions gathering your inspiration and/or material. it’s always beautiful and interesting to watch but honestly, I never really did it for myself.

lately, I have been trying to simplify my process and work with more intention….so I am (finally) giving the whole gathering thing a real try.

It’s still early days but I can already how honoring what I love ( to create with) and how I want to create feels in my body.

I think that because I came to art via an interest in abstract expressionism and intuitive painting that I was very unattracted to to a more limited palette, limited supplies approach.

for me, part of the excitement in painting is just intuitively reaching for colors and materials and I thought limits would sort of mess with my studio movements.

while the freewheeling approach once worked ( am may again)… a bit of foresight can definitely go a long way in providing space to explore…in times when you don’t have the time or space to work with wild abandon. these are those times

as someone , who is primarily works in sketchbooks, these days, I am no stranger to limits but I have mostly a sort of kitchen sink application with supplies until recently. earlier this summer, I let go of a large portion of my acrylics, they just didn’t bring me joy and the additives were making me sick…

so I have been sort of free-falling when it comes to art because acrylics are a very forging medium. Learning how to get my desired results in watercolor, markers, gouache, ink, colored pencils, graphite and charcoal etc. has been a on-going process. it has also been overwhelming, although that is all self-induced because I felt such an huge gap in my technical skills*. It’s still there but I have been working away at it with slow and deliberate attention.

as someone who loves all the art supplies and to explore having a container for my inspiration has been sanity saving. there will always be new and better but knowing how to really use the things that you have is also amazing. Someone will always be doing something cool and interesting but knowing what you like and the marks you enjoy making is equally as interesting. it is so tempting to think that the supplies make the art…while they shouldn’t hinder, if we are honest a lot of it is just marketing. I am already the artist I need to be…it’s take practice to be the one I want to be. practice. practice. practice.

*this gap has more to do with me and ,u own changing interest than the medium