I have been on a decor and cookbook bender. I tried to get into a few books of fiction but it never seems to pan out.
or maybe I am trying to read what I think I should read versus what I actually want to read which is chic lit and mysteries
Perphas, I will look through my virtual and physical shelves and see if anything catches my eye.
or maybe I will just read about decorating and cooking and watch people talk about fiction.
my favorite booktuber these days is Jen Campbell
there has been this nutty thought looming in my head about getting rid of most of my old journals. Or just keeping the ones that mean something to me or cutting out the pieces that do.
when I think about all the things I’ve created I am happy I have created them but rarely do I go back and look at the older ones. my favorite journal is always my current one.
art is so funny. I always thought I was creating to hold on but maybe it’s about letting go, too.
I recently finished craft-fulness: mend yourself by making things. the book did not present any earth shattering revelations but it did remind me of why I do what I do…i love it.
I know that we are often told to monetize all the things (and there is nothing wrong with that) but it is also okay to just do things because they make you feel good.
maybe I am the freak who just likes to make things for the sake of making them. I know I could do more but I don’t want to right now. I am satisfied with my smallness. I am okay with my ordinary life of making , wifing and mothering. I don’t want to hustle or beholden to shareholders/clients/the market…not right now and maybe never when it comes to creativity.
the truth is after 900 years of school( I kid but it felt like that at times) , I still don’t know what I want to be when I grow up but maybe I am doing what I need to in this particular session of my life. And that is okay. it’s more than okay. it’s enough.
I have probably written this all before but it bears repeating.
Taking deep breaths
My kids. They are nuts but so fun. We are actually having a pretty decent summer and I say this because the past few have been bad bad. Keep us in your prayers.
Not trying to solve anyone’s business but my own| minding my business
Outside and chill
Music…Tasha’s Cobbs break every chain.
Reading. I’m going to try and finish a stack of books that I’ve renewed about three times this month…it’s mostly cookbooks (so I have a fighting chance).
Remembering my grandma. Her passing anniversary is this month. I want to make a cake or cornbread and greens and all the food I can recall her cooking. I don’t know what I will have strength for but she will be on my heart. I want to remember her to my kids because because of her I am.
Art. It is such a gift. One day…I will write(even if only you for myself) how it changed my life for the better.